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Tweak by Nic Sheff
Insight into an addict’s thinking...quotes from the book:
.”..but I don’t care. Isn’t that the greatest gift in the world- just not to care? I feel so grateful for it. That’s nothing I ever knew sober.” pg 60
From his sponsor, “You’ve had all the good times your’re ever gonna have with meth, heroin, or any of that stuff. It just gets worse from here on out. There is another way... by committing yourself to the program... going to meetings, working the steps, and by helping others...” pg 137
After being clean for months he attends a party, “Seeing the meth there, I almost can’t breathe with anticipation.” pg 245
After a friend has died, “ We call our dealer...we buy lots of cocaine and crystal and some pills. We’re basically out of money. I’m not sure how we’re going to pay rent, or eat, or anything.” pg 271
Another time in rehab, “ Even just saying I’m sorry seems so meaningless...repairing any of the damage I’ve done to them (his family & friends) seems impossible. In fact, building my life back seems impossible. I keep thinking just over and over about how I’ve managed to ruin everything once again. I’ve torn my world down, then guilt it back up, then torn it down again, then guilt it back and on and on. It feels so overwhelming. ... The longer I’ve been here, the more committed I’ve become.” This is after many times at different rehabs. pg 308
DON’T GIVE UP. Whether you are an addict or a family member of an addict. DON”T GIVE UP. Pray, have faith and remain hopeful.
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